The Opposite of Easy
Friday, December 18, 2015
i've drawn this before but
it's the center of everything. every time i read something about feeling your feelings and then not using them to help yourself become a monster i feel like i have rediscovered an alphabet.
the midwest and the damage done
i did a series of comics while visiting minnesota this past fall, on a family trip to scatter my grampa's ashes. some of the stuff that happened while we were there was too dark to draw about, or at least too dark to share the drawings, but some of it is just dark enough.
my mother not knowing a better way to share in someone's happiness than to make an unfunny joke about it being potentially full of shit and on its way down the tubes is pretty key to the way things move and shake in my heart.
and then gram just needing an outlet for shrieking.
my mother not knowing a better way to share in someone's happiness than to make an unfunny joke about it being potentially full of shit and on its way down the tubes is pretty key to the way things move and shake in my heart.
and then gram just needing an outlet for shrieking.
Monday, May 4, 2015
this is a comic all about how my life got flip turned upside down
so when i was kind of processing this day or whatever and thinking about making a comic of it, at first i was like "oh right these feelings have their roots in my relationship with michael, where i would try really hard to be someone he would admire and he would just fucking slice me to ribbons with his cold indifferent judgy shade-throwing"but THEN i was like "oh wait no actually the roots are back in like middle school probably where those girls called me a whore when i thought i had a cool outfit on and then threw french fries at me at lunch" but THEN i remembered i have always been this way.
it is just really easy for me to feel like you hate me, that's like my move
to just crumble into horrified sorrow
and want only to disappear
and never have been seen
and never be seen again.
so this is a comic about how that is still kind of the preset setting for me and maybe it always will be i don't even fucking know but point being the like seriously wondrous massive difference that has finally kind of sunk in after years of effort is: 1. turnaround on this shit is like lightyears faster than it was ever able to be, like i used to get sad and stay sad for days and now i just don't; and 2. my life is full to overflowing with people i love, i love them so much, and when you have filled your life with people you love it is so much harder to get buried in that tempting hole of self-loathing for more than a little minute every now and again.
it's just really fucking incredible.
it is just really easy for me to feel like you hate me, that's like my move
to just crumble into horrified sorrow
and want only to disappear
and never have been seen
and never be seen again.
so this is a comic about how that is still kind of the preset setting for me and maybe it always will be i don't even fucking know but point being the like seriously wondrous massive difference that has finally kind of sunk in after years of effort is: 1. turnaround on this shit is like lightyears faster than it was ever able to be, like i used to get sad and stay sad for days and now i just don't; and 2. my life is full to overflowing with people i love, i love them so much, and when you have filled your life with people you love it is so much harder to get buried in that tempting hole of self-loathing for more than a little minute every now and again.
it's just really fucking incredible.
Monday, April 20, 2015
this is just to say
you know how you go back and forth on whether you should keep doing the art stuff you like doing or whether you should just bury your idiot brain in the internet forever because who even fucking cares about you you are so annoying
which is itself annoying
that whole premise
like you can only do stuff if you're good enough
it's just dumb
you would never say that to someone you love
like hey stop doing that you're not good enough
it doesn't fucking matter
you can just do whatever
and you can do whatever whenever
that is also true
fits and starts
it's fine
you're ok
and you can do this because you need to or because it's good for you or because you like it or because you don't care about anything anyway like literally it doesn't matter
this world is burning all around you
nothing is yours
not even your body
especially your body
keep going
you are having a wonderful time
Friday, April 3, 2015
a helpful psa
ok so we have some popular fq&a's for this one here we go:
q: hannah are you wearing a fancy dress in this!
a: yes!
q: also earrings?
a: yes also earrings!
q: you look so pretty!
a: thank you i know.
q: hannah why do you also have no pants on tho
a: because this is a comic about dating on the internet
q: what
a: also it is about pussies
q: great
a: next q pls
q: hannah this is your mother is it ok for me to read this?
a: mom no pls get out of here
q: what does bf & af mean
a: mom i said gtfo of here i am cereal
q: this isn't your mom i am just an idiot!
a: ok sorry it means BEFORE FUCKING and AFTER FUCKING
q: oh duh of course
a: yeah seriously wth
q: why are you fucking up with layout and negative space!
a: listen everything in my life is crazy rn ok cool it idk
q: i love you
a: ok i love you too bye
Saturday, March 14, 2015
sayonara trashbag #2: some history
oh so one thing about these comics is i am kind of just doing them as sloppily and quickly as i can/as i feel like
like ok art is a thing but fuck it what is this a museum no it's the internet, the internet is for feelings
breakup comics/sayonara trashbag
hi hello it's me i'm here.
in january i broke up with michael, with whom i had been living for two years, dating for three.
i had wanted to break up with him, off and on, for . . . three years.
there are just some very dumb lame reasons why i got together with him and some very dumber lamer reasons why i stayed and while i don't have an outline or anything what i have been doing lately is comicsing about it because as you can imagine there's a bunch of fucking garbage backed up in my psyche.
dealing with someone for three years with whom you would rather not deal will take a toll and it will be a long time before i think about men in general as being even a category with which i want to have any personal engagement and a LONG fucking time before i genuinely trust admire or like one again.
or maybe not who knows maybe i will fall in love with some dum dum tomorrow but anyway this is just greetings and salutations i have been in a lil dumb hole of my own devising for too long and now i'm hopping around in some green green grass again and want to comics about it good morning.
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
a parable
Friday, September 19, 2014
i love my bf
haven't been putting comics on here in a while but when is a better time to begin again than now. been trying to learn how to use paint, like watercolors specifically, and finish a children's book i've been working on forever. anyway here is a thing i made for michael because he is good, and good for me.
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
where has u been, precious
hi i still draw comics i just usually don't do the whole scan color ink upload shebang these days, mostly i just draw them on like notebook paper or some crap and take a picture so follow me on tumblr? if you want to still see them, plus all the loads of other marvelous crap i find, i am the best at tumblr, OR friend me on fb, i post a lot of them there, but also i am horrible on fb so maybe don't friend me there.
here is something for you just a sliver a sampling a slice of the marvelous things i find and post.
anyway this is just a public service announcement since this is my blogspot but i ignore it lately. it's still cool you can still hang out here. anyway see you around bye.
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